Friends That Stay Forever.

Taylor, Andrew, Katelyn.

Friends are the people that are supposed to be there for you. Friends are supposed to care just as much as you care. Friends are supposed to eat all of the food out of your fridge. Friends are supposed to have your back. They are supposed to be like a second family. Sometimes, you don't get friends like that. You get "friends" that are out to hurt you. Friends that are liars. Fake Friends; the ones like that should be kicked in the face. I don't think I would say I have friends. I have acquaintances. People that only come to me when they need something. I know a lot of people like that. Which sucks. I don't associate with many people. Because that's just the way I am. But there are three amazing people, that I know will be there with me until the very end. I've ignored or gotten angry with each of them. I've fought with them. And they haven't left me yet.

Taylor. She's the one I've known the longest of the three. We had a rough start at first, and didn't like each other. We grew out of that. Freshmen year we became really close. I'm glad because of that, I've learned a lot more about a person then I ever thought I would. Well, with her anyway. We rarely fight, but when we do we're back to normal the next day. We know exactly what buttons to push, to piss the other one off. We know exactly what makes the other person happy. We're similar in a lot of ways. Different in just as many ways. Taylor is a friend I plan on keeping forever. She's carried me through a lot of difficult things, just like I have done the same for her.

Andrew. He's the one I've known the shortest of the three. He's different from any other guy you'd meet. He sees things in a completely different way, and that's what makes him unique. He tries to make the best out of any situation, whether it be making you smile or saying something stupid to make you laugh. (Which works every time). I think if he could, he'd marry music. He talks about it all the time, and somehow puts it into every conversation that I have with him. I don't trust guys that easily, but I trust him. He has a way with words, a way that makes you feel good about yourself. He understands, more than most guys would. Basically. Andrew is the only guy I trust at this point. We've known each other for a little over a month, but it feels like I've known him forever.

Katelyn. She's in the middle of all of them. If I ever need a laugh, she's the girl I go too. She says she's not funny, but she really is. We find out something new about each other every day. Katelyn is kind of like Taylor in a lot of ways. They have a lot of the same qualities. I think that's why we became friends so fast. Skype. Normally when this happens, we Skype for like two hours but it only feels like five minutes. I never have a dull moment with her, because she'll say something and I'll laugh for about an hour. She's also different, but that's what makes her, her. I wouldn't want her to change anything about herself.

All three of them are completely different people, but share the same qualities. They've been with me from day one. I'm a difficult friend to have, but I know they'll never leave. No matter what I deal with, if I fall, they pick me right back up. And I do the same for them. In my eyes, I see us as the four amigos. Even if Katelyn and Andrew live miles away. I love them all more than anything. I wouldn't trade them for anything. These are MY best friends, even if they are a little weird at times c:

Sometimes All You Need Is Change.

She carries a lot. She carries the stress from school, the stress from home, and the stress from society. She's been told that she has to set a good example for her sisters and brother. She's the oldest out of four, she has higher expectations. Expectations that she can't meet. She doesn't have friends, and maybe that's apart of the problem. She doesn't have anyone to go to, because friends just get up and leave. She always says “Everyone leaves at some point right?”

It was her freshman year, new school new people. Everyone she met in middle school was going to the other campus. Everything was new for her, and she was scared. For the first few weeks, she stayed by herself, she didn't try to make friends. Because they weren't the friends she had in middle school. She felt like the new kid all over again. She didn't like that feeling. She didn't like feeling lost. And that's exactly how she felt. She did meet one friend, more like a best friend. A girl that will probably stay her friend forever. And her name is Taylor. They didn't like each other at first, but they sure as hell didn't think they would meet again in high school. But they did. And Taylor became the best friend she didn't ever want to loose. Her family life was falling apart, and she didn't know what to do. She was only fourteen. She couldn't do much. She couldn't do anything. And that's when she became insecure, when she became depressed. She felt like she had to be perfect. And if she wasn't, everyone put her down. All of freshmen year, she carried a lack of confidence. She carried insecurity.

Her sophomore year came along, the year that tore her apart. Everyone she met freshmen year was gone. They weren't there anymore. And that's when she finally realized that in high school, everyone leaves. No one is really there for you, like they say they are. Her family life was getting worse and worse. Her grades were dropping. Everything was going wrong, and she felt more lost than ever. She wanted to be a kid again, she didn't want all of this stress. She wanted to be carefree, to be happy. But, she couldn't because every time she tried it was taken away. Her depression was getting worse, but she hid it all with a smile. A smile that leads everyone to believe that she's actually happy. When in reality, she's not. Every one said that high school was supposed to be fun. But to her, it didn't end up that way. The things she carried started adding up. She still carried a lack of confidence and insecurity. She carried despair. She carried desperation. She carried society's idea of perfect. Perfect is what she wanted to be. 

She's been in high school for three years now. Three years that went by so fast. She's not the same girl from freshmen year, she's changed a lot. She's grown up and matured. Her depression continues to get worse. But now she has hope. They've always said not to talk to strangers. But two completely different strangers have become some of her best friends. Katelyn and Andrew. They're just like Taylor, in a lot of ways. Neither of the three have left her side yet. She doesn't think they ever will either. She's learned to let go, and not keep things bottled up. She's open to trying new things, meeting new people. A lot has happened in all this time. She's made friends. Lost friends. Been in relationships that she thought would last. She's been hurt, plenty of times. But all of that hurt has made her stronger. She's working on building her confidence back. And she has the help of three amazing people. Now, after all of the pain scars and tears. She's healing. She has faith.

She won't be returning back to the high school that has helped her grow. She'll be moving. Moving to a new school, where she'll be the new kid again. Where she'll have to make new friends. She's a lot more open minded than she was during her freshmen year. She's going to miss everyone, the students, the teachers. The school all together. Because this was the school that made her, her. She's already made it a plan to come back and visit, even if she lives twelve hours away. Waukegan will always be a part of her. She grew up here. She's become stronger. And she will always be a Bulldog.

She's always wanted change. And even if it isn't how she expected or wanted it to be, she's finally getting it. For once, she's finally getting what she wants. And now, she carries Hope.